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无奈的耳鸣

讨厌,好讨厌那声音。 身旁的同事,谈着电话,用尺和笔在纸上用力的画了几下。而她,直打寒颤。不是因为室温太低;发抖的原因另有其他。同事不以为然,没发现,一直做着相同的动作。神经质的她,开始移动,潜意识想疏远这个声音。“砰!” 靠边了。敲到了使用的桌子。很痛,可是不能责怪他人。 自从搬到这坐位,就蛮讨厌上班。不知何故,坐隔壁的同事老P让人深有种咬牙切齿之感。不是想挑他的毛病,可是一向神经质的她,不难发现他惹人厌的小动作。她有自我检讨,是否给过他机会,站在他的立场,想想。可他这种种可归类为“小动作”的大动作,不只她不能接受。 更让人不耐烦地,是他的声量!左耳比较敏感的她,深深发现,搬过来后,听觉失调。天啊!何时才能换位呢?

Misfit

*First written in Secondary four for S1, moved from diaryland* “People come and go in life but they never stay put for long.” I concluded evenly. This was not the first time I felt this way. I was in college for two years. It had been hectic, but I managed the work, all alone… Being alone is nice, college homework does not give me the time for friendships. I do not fit into the college circle like what everyone does. I just stand outside the circle, enough for me to know what to do or how to complete my work. When this happens, they leave me alone. Sometimes I wonder what I have done to make people so afraid of me? Is it my looks? The way I walk and talk? Or the way I isolated myself from the others? I never get to know. I was once so friendly. I talked, I laughed, I played, and I did everything a student should do. I was so dependent on friends. I want to laugh now. Look at me. Just look at me! I live alone in the hostel room I rented. I walk alone to school. I sit alone in th...